5a Change is so hard. Why should it be so hard? I cannot seem to stop drinking. I keep making my mind up, and then I keep changing it. All of my little tricks fall short. What the hell am I going to do???
I keep thinking things will be different. I keep intending things to be different. But they end up so much the same. How can I be so damn stubborn? But stubborn I am, and I refuse to give up. It should be so easy. Just. Don’t. Drink. But I just keep drinking. Why?