I had been studying Napoleon Hill, beginning with Outwitting the Devil, and ultimately finding Think and Grow Rich. Around the same time I discovered Wallace D. Wattles and The Secret. I believed that learning and living these principles would finally help me unlock my true purpose, ignite my deepest passion, and my realize highest potential.
I did everything those books told me to do. When Napoleon Hill told me to write something down and repeat it over and over, I did just that.
Self-Confidence Formula from Think and Grow Rich, Chapter Three:
First: “I know that I have the ability to achieve the object of my definite chief aim in life, therefore, I demand of myself persistent, continuous action toward its attainment, and I here and now promise to render such action.”
Second: “I realize the dominating thoughts of my mind will eventually reproduce themselves in outward, physical action and gradually transform themselves into physical reality. Therefore, I will concentrate my thoughts for thirty minutes daily upon the task of thinking of the person I intend to become, thereby creating in my mind a clear mental picture of that person.”
Here I would read the following list of character traits I deeply desired to embody:
I kept this same list written on an index card and carried it with me everywhere. I would read this list many times each day and actively imagine myself as being this woman, repeating each character trait as an *I AM* statement, like “I AM Femininity”, “I AM Beauty”, and so on.
Third: “I know through the principle of auto-suggestion, any desire that I persistently hold in my mind will eventually seek expression through some practical means of attaining the object back of it, therefore, I will devote ten minutes daily to demanding of myself the development of self-confidence.”
Fourth: I have clearly written down a description of my definite chief aim in life, and I will never stop trying, until I have developed sufficient self-confidence for its attainment.
Here was my bump in the road, the hiccup in my giddy-up. I did not know what my definite chief aim in life should be! That was the problem! I had dreams: I wanted to travel, I wanted to write, and I wanted to help people. I had goals: I wanted to be physically fit and financially independent. But a definite chief aim in life? I just couldn’t grasp what that should be.
Instead of reciting a clearly written statement here, I would conjure up my dreams and goals, bow my head and close my eyes and beseech Infinite Intelligence with every fiber of my being – Please help me! Please tell me what my purpose is! Please help me figure out what I have come here to do!
I did this every day for months.
I had a glimpse of a vision during my first solo camp at Douglas Falls. I saw myself camping with other women, offering what I had been offered there.
My heart leapt, and my mind immediately objected. Still, I attempted to recorded this vision in my journal, just in case my purpose was actually being revealed to me. I used active imagination to enter and extend the vision into something I could aim for.
August 20, 2016 ~ My definite chief aim in life
I am a researcher and writer, fully in touch with my creative spirit. I will write books! The first will be my story, the premise being, “The art of reinventing yourself”. I will lead retreats for women who are stuck in a false identity and long to become more authentically themselves.
Beginning where I am, I will start with tents and suitable campgrounds for rest, healing, and quiet contemplation. Eventually, I envision my own land with waterfalls and plenty of hiking. On this land I will build my own tiny house. I will have other tiny houses built as well, so that my retreats are safe and comfortable year round. We will have mornings of solitude, communal meals, and evening reflection around the campfire.
The purpose for these retreats, and for my life, is to show people, by experience, that they can re-birth themselves at any time, offering inspiration and encouragement. I will collect and share stories of success that will further inspire them. I am invited on speaking engagements to do the same.
I will live close to nature and lead a simple but luxurious life, in tune with my Creator and Love. The art of reinventing yourself… this is my gift to the world. I have been in training for this my whole life. Awaken, souls! Find and live out of your truth, your authentic Self. I love you, and I believe in you! ❤
Fifth: I fully realize that no wealth or position can long endure unless built upon truth and justice. Therefore, I will engage in no transaction which does not benefit all whom it affects. I will succeed by attracting to myself the forces I wish to use, and the cooperation of other people. I will induce others to serve me, because of my willingness to serve others. I will eliminate hatred, envy, jealousy, selfishness, and cynicism by developing love for all humanity, because I know that a negative attitude toward others can never bring me success. I will cause others to believe in me, because I will believe in them, and in myself.
I will sign my name to this formula, commit it to memory, and repeat it aloud once a day, with full faith that it will gradually influence my thoughts and actions, so that I will become a self-reliant, and successful person.